Why does one thing fall apart after another?

Could one mistake really make things worse forever?

Why is love the most sweetest emotion in the world and yet it's the painful of all?

Why is yesterday happy and tomorrow full of sorrows?

Is love and pain synonymous to each other?

Why will he leave me after all the times we've spent together?

How can he leave me?

And after all these things, Why do i still love him?

Why can't I forget him?

Why can't love stay with me?

Why can't I run away from tears? 

Why does love hate me?

Why does sorrow love me?

Currently feeling: sad

         maraming beses nakong nagmahal at nasaktan...but still i keep falling in love...i tried not to but i cant..."love addict" kaya pwedeng itawag sakin...love is something u can easily run from...i've felt it....once kasi i fall...i really fall head over heels..i love truly,mdly,and deeply..(kanta yun diba?hehehe)....well anyways even though sa ming magbabarkada eh akoh ang nilalapitan pag may love issue cila..still pag problema ku na pinag-uusapan,di ku ma-solve and i cant even find the true answers...pag-ibig nga naman can really make you do the most foolish things....

         in my entire life,i believed in fairy tales,happy endings,destiny,etc. but after getting hurt by the man i loved the most...i stopped dreaming and stopped believing..pano naman parang lahat ng lalaki eh pare-pareho....guto koh ng guy na kayang makuntento....and see me as the prettiest girl..(kahit sa eyes lang nia)...cant seem to find the right guy...should i call s.o.s.??hehehe

          well maybe my guy isn't coming or maybe na-traffic xa??hehehe i think im going to start believin again....start dreaming for another guy who could make my dreams come true...(even just for love lang!!hehehe) maybe sumday he'll come and maybe im willing to wait....cge tulog muna si love princess...ciao....mwah...

          grabe super complete ng araw ko...first time ko kasi mkasama crush koh..hehehe he is so super cute and he's got the yummiest smile..hehehe sana maging close kami grabe...never thought this day would come...nang-aasar nga cla sir nobe kakahiya..hehehe but kinumpleto nia araw koh..naks hehehe

          i wish we could be closer pero cguro not more than that kasi alam kong di nia papayagan na mging more than friends kmi...and mgiging kuntento nlang ako if ever friendship lang tlga mai-o-offer nia...if ever may mamahalin tlga akong guy,i want him to be like edison...emotionally sensitive and super yummy mag-smile...hehehe

          sana he could see me as something more than someone by his side...do i make sense??hehehe ang gulo koh...think im going crazy...basta i like what im feeling....sana he feels sumthing special for me too...hehehe

Currently feeling: loved

      spendng two hours with my ex???ano kayang feeling... it's quite diferent pero masaya.... he's sum1 who became really special in your past and now he's still the same guy....pinakilala nia ko sa mama nia...

       he's really cute but ewan parang may kulang...kasi nung kmi eh masyado xang maluwag sakin...di nia koh pinapagalitan or pinagbabawalan kaya parang may missing....ksi parang feeling koh ala xa care sakin....

       hmp ewan....

      seryoso ba tlga college...hmmmm not so much kasi di nmn ako seryoso....hehehe made new friends and doble gastos nanaman sa christmas gift....hahaha pero in fairness college life for me is bein much much more mature......in what???hmmmm handling relationships with other people and tring to get over every cry sa emotions.... speaking of emotions... na-in love nga pala akoh sa isang ipis....ipis na walang ginawa kundi manggago at makahanap ng pantyng mauuto..... well too bad for jinky hahahaha.....may araw din xa.....(bonifacio,ikaw ba yan???)

      hmmm....mean girls???kame ni ella at denz un....pretty gurls dapat with attitude mas appropriate...well actually everyone thinks na c shamae ung ksama namin...hmmm wrong!! we're not plastik...it's just pakikisama...meron pa pala...c mia pimentel??? kilala koh ba yon???hahaha..diyosa ang pangalan,napakasama naman ng ugali (at amoy!!)hahaha...ang maldita ko noh....im just being true to myself....im not afraid to shout to the world kung ano nararamdaman koh....well not totaly....may mga things na ii keep to myself....like being so annoyed with someone that i secretly love until now.... hmmm stupid love....

      college is about crazy instructors...like sir gloria na parang laging lasing sa twing papasok ng klasrum namin...o si sir lachika na parang walang dila na nagsasalita sa harap...(wa aku maintindihan sa kanya since the first day of classes...)...si mam laurido na napaka-cute sana kung hnd nasa out of this world ang utak)...kikay din xa,mahilig sa damit...bohemian ang style ng porma,tinalo kami ni ela...hahaha....and the best instructor is our taebo master mr. pagulayan....pretty guy ang dating,papabol ang katawan and suuper sexy at macho....naka-shorts...hahaha...malaman sabi ni jimwel...fitted nga daw eh....hahaha what we do is living life with laughter because it would be our memory...(pang-patay???hahaha)

      and lastly...college is about crushes to remember....hmmm...crush? marami aku nian before...pero now iisa nalang....ayoko ma-in love sa kanya kasi he cant get over his ex...parang he cant move on with someone new....gusto ko xang tulungan pero every time i come closer..he seems like pushing me away...i made him two songs(talented...hehehe) pero i made it sincerely...he's the second guy i made a song for pero wala naman atang worth un sa kanya....i dont want to be so desperate for his love kasi it will never be right...i want him to like me but that would really seem to a dream that can never come true...xa nga pla ung nag-iisang tinitigan ku nung concert namin..kasi naman sa lahat ng tao dun,xa lang ung napansin ku tlga....ewan ku...he seems really special to me but as the saying goes.."if it's for you then it would be for you someday.."

     it's all about destiny...cge got to go now...papa-cute muna ako sa salamin...baka dumating c prince charming...pa-praktis ako ng smile..hehehe cge mwah...